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mia evans

thank you.

Stay a little longer

I missed you so much

I'm so happy you came back to visit me

I love when you come to visit me

There is a certain happiness only you can give me. No one else has ever given me that kind of happiness and it scares me a little. What if I can't be with you forever... What if something happens and I can never find that happiness again?  I'm scared because what I have with you is so real. 

It's real. None of that fake bullshit that surrounds us. You're the only real thing I've got right now but I don't even have you 100%. You're gone a lot.  

You come to visit sometimes but it's not enough. When you visit it's nothing but laughs, smiles, and kisses on the forehead and "I've missed yous" 

I just wish you could stay a little longer. 

Pics pics pics

some songs you should listen to...

well first off you can listen to all the songs i put on my blog:)

• specks-matt pond PA (great song for those canyon drives)
• adorn-miguel
• sorry momma- YG
• my boo-usher
• so into you-fabolous 
• pictures of you-the cure
• all john mayer
• pull my heart away- jack penate (another good canyon song)
• lost-chance the rapper
• come over-skizzy mars
• old school chris brown
• want that old thing back-biggie (matoma remix)*** good
• earned it- the weeknd
• brother-matt corby
• good vibrations- marky mark (i swear anytime you are sad just listen to this and you are automatically so much happier)
• show me- omarion ft. jeremih
• any j boog and fiji
• the light-common
• all trey songz
•  until the end of time-JT
•  drake & j. cole
• tipsy-t-pain
• i will be there- odessa
• don't know why-norah jones 

well there you have it...enjoyyyyy

half this post is j.cole lyrics

you wanna know what's scary?

thinking you know someone...you've known them for years. you know everything about them, right? but the thing is, you really don't.

one day out of the blue they will say something to you that you had no idea ever even crossed their mind to say. in that moment, you wish you never met them

i have no idea what i'm saying and i have no idea what to write

i'm sad.

you should listen to the song fire squad by j. cole its really good

"we all kings. kings of ourselves first and foremost."

i like that line...and i dont know why..

"History repeats itself and that's just how it goes
Same way that these rappers always bite each others flows
Same thing that my nigga Elvis did with Rock n Roll
Justin Timberlake, Eminem, and then Macklemore
While silly niggas argue over who gone snatch the crown
Look around my nigga white people have snatched the sound


Ain't gonna be no more kings
Be wary of any man that claims
Because deep down he clings onto the need for power
But in reality he's a coward
Ultimately he's scared to die
And sometimes so am I
But when I'm in tune with the most high
I realize
The fear lies in my lack of awareness of the other side "

anyways... sorry if you just wasted your time reading this but no one is probably reading this anyway so i guess its ok

trying to think of a good title

Life. 

It is such a precious gift. They say you don't realize what you have until it's gone. Never would I know the true meaning of that till I first hand experienced it. 

Losing someone makes you wish you could go back to every single moment with them. The smallest things mean the most to you. 

I remember her bare feet down the hallway

I remember her little laugh 

puzzles on the kitchen floor 

Barbies and dolls, I love you to the moon and back

I remember her green eyes looking into mine 

Like we had our own secret club 

I remember her dancing before bedtime the jumping on me waking me up 

I can still feel her hold my hand

Life was so good to her. She had her best friend up the street and her sweet family to take care of here. I tried to be the best sister in the world to her even though I know I wasn't the best at times. She and I had so much fun together and I miss those times more than anything.

I know things can be taken from you so quick and so sudden. You can't even blink, and it's already taken from you. I woke up on a Saturday to head to the mall with mom and while I was doing my hair, I heard that scream and my world crushed into pieces. Never to be the same ever again.

"Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say
Now it's too late to hold you.. cause you've flown away. So far away. Never had I imagined living without your smile. But feeling and knowing you hear me.. It keeps me alive. 

I never showed you completely. I assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted.. But I always cared. And I miss the love we shared. 

I know you're shining down on me from heaven. Like so many friends we've lost along the way. And I know eventually we'll be together..one sweet day."

Cherish every moment with those you love. 

Cherish it like its your last because I am telling you...
You never know when it could honestly be your very last moment.